Evelyn stood in the darkness, holding her face in her hand as her fight with Lucas replayed itself yet again in her mind.
Was I too hard on him? She wondered. Maybe I am being ungrateful… Ugh, I just don’t know anymore!
Evelyn shook her head, frustrated, and began slowly pacing back and forth, her mind racing. It felt like everything was falling apart, and with each passing day, it was like Lucas was slipping farther and farther out of her reach.
She had sensed him drifting for a while already, but lately, things had only gotten worse. And, harsh though her words had been, it seemed like he was being selfish about his search for her cure. He keeps saying he wants a normal relationship… Doesn’t he know I do too? Evelyn sighed to herself.
He’d been working so hard for so long… Whatever his reasons, shouldn’t she be more grateful? In the end, it’ll be for us no matter what…. She thought. If there’s even still an ‘us’ left by the time we get there…
Evelyn drifted down to a spot on the cold empty ground below her and stared up at the infinite blackness above her head, deep in thought. I can’t lose him. She thought desperately.
Evelyn loved Lucas more than she’d ever loved anyone or anything, in life or in death. Without him, she had nothing. Literally.
The ghost closed her eyes as her sorrow overwhelmed her. What are we gonna do…?
“You don’t understand, I have to do this!”
“No… For you.”
Lucas hung his head as the argument replayed in his head for what felt like the hundredth time. Their fight from the night before had been haunting him all day.
Did Ev really mean that? He wondered. Does she really think I’m that selfish? And what if she was right? Lucas sighed and shook his head.
No. He told himself firmly, trying to chase away his doubts. This is for her. It’s always been for her… But now part of it’s for me too. He admitted to himself. Is that so wrong of me? Does that make me selfish? Lucas certainly didn’t think so.
Still, he shouldn’t have spoken to her the way he did. He winced inwardly, wishing he could take it all back. She probably hates me now. And that’s without even knowing the whole truth…
Lucas’ train of thought was interrupted by a sudden buzzing from his pocket. He pulled out his phone and glanced down at the screen. As usual, it was Noah.
“Hey, what’s up?” Lucas answered, trying his best to sound cheerful.
“Dude, you are never gonna believe this.”
“Is that so?” Lucas rolled his eyes. “Okay, I’ll bite. What is it?”
Noah took a deep breath. “Sam just called me… Laura’s pregnant.”
“No friggin’ way!” Lucas’ eyes widened. “What are they gonna do?”
“Sounds like they’re keepin’ it. He is freaking out, man.” Noah chuckled to himself. “But it sounds like he’s kinda happy, too.”
Lucas hesitated for a moment. “So, uh… Why are you the one telling me and not Sam?” He asked.
“Well… I wasn’t really supposed to say anything.” Noah confessed. “I’m taking him out tonight to celebrate, and I told him you’d come too…”
“Wow, thanks for checking with me first.” Lucas interjected, sarcastic.
He could almost picture Noah rolling his eyes as he continued. “It’s been forever since we’ve seen you, Luke. You can afford one night out.” Noah paused. “Anyway, Sam said he’d tell you tonight in person… But I thought it’d be nice to give you a little heads-up first.”
“Well… thanks, I guess.” Lucas shook his head. “Damn… Sam, with a kid?”
“I know, right?” Noah laughed. “So I figure we’ll need to cram as much fun as possible in the next few months while we still can, before Sam starts wearing a tucked-in polo and telling dad jokes…”
“Heh, yeah, that’s definitely the point of no return…”
“So we’ll meet you around… ten? Nah, better make it nine-thirty.” Noah corrected himself. “Gotta get Sam used to those early nights…” He added with a laugh.
Lucas couldn’t help but chuckle too. “Doesn’t sound like I have much of a choice… See you there, man.”
He returned the phone to his pocket, still struggling to take it all in. Never in his wildest dreams did Lucas imagine that Sam would be the first one to have a kid. Though, now that he thought of it, he couldn’t picture Noah as a father either… How’d we grow up so fast? He wondered.
Lucas sighed to himself. He wished Noah had at least asked before promising Sam he’d go out tonight. It had been weeks since they’d gone out together, and being back in a bar or club always brought back memories of his birthday…
Ever since that night, Lucas had practically turned into a teetotaler, compared to Noah and Sam. He would limit himself to one or two drinks, and simply sit back and watch while his friends got totally smashed without him. Seeing all the beautiful women who frequented the local clubs was tempting enough already. Lucas had learned the hard way that too much alcohol could so easily turn a passing temptation into a reality…
Still, Lucas thought to himself, seeing his friends would offer a welcome escape from dwelling on his fight with Evelyn. And it’ll be nice to unwind for once… Maybe Evelyn had been right about one thing – Maybe he needed to slow down?
Lucas rose to his feet, feeling much more optimistic than he had just a few minutes before. This is just what I need right now. He told himself. It’ll be fun. Lucas just hoped he was right.