Chapter Ninety-Six

A soft groan escaped the girl’s lips as her eyes fluttered open, staring up at the empty white ceiling above. Her entire body felt weak and achy, and her mind was lost in a fog of half-remembered dreams.

Evelyn lay there for a long time, unmoving. It was so tempting to simply lay there all day and do absolutely nothing. And in fact, there was nothing more she’d rather do. But Evelyn knew she had no choice. Not today, at least.

With a heavy sigh, she swung her legs over the side of the bed and pulled herself to her feet.

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She yawned heavily as she took a few steps around the edge of the bed, taking great care to keep her balance as she did so. It had been nearly three days since she’d eaten the Ambrosia, and even something as simple as walking still proved to be a challenge for her. Evelyn had anticipated that the adjustment would not be easy. She’d just never imagined it would be this difficult.

But of course, none of it could even begin to compare to what else she’d been forced to adjust to. Nothing could have ever prepared her for that.

Evelyn crossed around the bed and looked out onto the balcony as the soft morning light crept its way slowly toward the window. It was a beautiful sight, but an extremely uncomfortable one as well. The girl lifted a tiny pale hand and shielded her eyes from the bright light as she drew back from the glass door.

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God, I feel like a vampire or something. She said to herself. The thought was almost enough to make her smile. But not quite.

Evelyn made her way out into the hall at a snail’s pace, and the pressure in her lower abdomen told her exactly where she needed to go. She sighed softly as she looked uncomfortably at the bathroom around her, her eyes lingering on the porcelain toilet bowl. It was all still so awkward and alien to her. But I guess I don’t have much of a choice…

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The only part of her morning routine that Evelyn found bearable was her daily shower. The feeling of the hot water running down her body and the warm steam filling the air was so calming and soothing. It helped to clear her mind and relax her weary muscles after a night of uncomfortable tossing and turning.

She left the clothes she’d borrowed from Danica in a crumpled pile on the floor and stepped beneath the warm stream of water. Evelyn closed her eyes and ran her fingers through her wet hair, trying to avoid looking down at her naked body as she did so. It was very strange to be so exposed after all the decades she’d spent covered by clothing.

As she stood beneath the rushing water, the thought brought back a memory from long ago…

“Kinda weird, right?” 

 “Yeah, about as weird as being able to think about a bathing suit and suddenly be wearing one!”  Lucas teased, smiling crookedly at her.

 Evelyn laughed softly. “I’d never tried it before… I can’t believe it worked! Y’know, I’ve been wearing the same outfit for the past 25 years…”

“Yikes! I guess we’d better sign you up for one of those makeover shows…” He said with a wink.

“Ha-ha. Very funny…”

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Evelyn let out a soft sob she hadn’t realized she’d been holding back and bowed her head, her tears mingling with the hot water that streamed down her face.

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After drying herself off, Evelyn picked up the old sweatpants and t-shirt from the floor and put them back on. She’d been wearing them for two days straight, and was certain they would soon begin to smell. But what was the point of getting changed? What was the point of anything anymore?

Besides, Krysti said she’d bring me something for today anyway. She remembered as she half-heartedly ran an old brush through her hair. That’ll have to do. She sighed, examining herself in the mirror.

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Seeing herself so beautiful again, so whole and alive, should have made her overjoyed. Instead, it just made her feel empty. He never got to see me like this… Each time she looked in the mirror served as a horrible reminder, and sent a wave of nausea through her stomach.

The girl turned away from the mirror and made her way slowly through the hallway and down the stairs to wait for Krystina.

The house felt so cold and empty – last night was the first night that neither Krystina nor Danica had stayed with her. But of course, Evelyn understood. They needed family time right now. And they needed time to prepare for today too.

They’d practically begged her to come stay with them at their house, but Evelyn had refused. She didn’t want to go anywhere. Not now. Maybe not ever.

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Evelyn felt her heart racing with anxiety as she crossed through the dining room. She’d avoided leaving the bedroom as much as she could for the past few days. The memories were simply too unbearable, and too fresh in her mind.

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Evelyn fought back her sobs as she crossed into the kitchen, trying to ignore the slight pain and rumbling in her stomach. I should really eat something… She thought as she reluctantly pulled open the refrigerator door. But the girl had absolutely no desire to. Evelyn had quickly discovered that she hated the feeling of  food in her mouth… but what was even worse was the taste. No matter what she tried, everything just seemed so disgusting and unappetizing.

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The girl shook her head and closed the refrigerator door, empty handed. She couldn’t help but wonder what she would have thought of Lucas’ cooking. I bet it was delicious… And even if it wasn’t, she would have eaten anything he’d made for her. She was sure of it.

As she turned away, her sparkling blue eyes fell on the now-empty fishbowl that sat on the corner counter. Her heart sank at the sight of it, as she recalled how excited and joyful she and Lucas had been when he’d found the angelfish at last.

“Lucas…” Evelyn whispered, holding back tears. “This is amazing. You’re amazing… You did it.”

He beamed at her. “I promised I would, didn’t I?”

“Thank you, Lucas.” She whispered fervently. “For everything. I love you so much.”

Evelyn could hear the smile in his voice. “I love you too.”

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How could they have known that so many years of failure still lay ahead of them? How could they have predicted the tragedy that would befall the family when Mel got sick? And how could they have ever dreamed of the cruel trick fate would play on them when they finally reached their goal at long last?

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Evelyn entered the brightly-lit living room, squinting her eyes slightly as she waited for her vision to adjust to the harsh sun. After a few moments, she finally lowered the hand that shielded her eyes and sat gently on the soft cushion of the couch. It was a relief to be off her feet – Evelyn had been quite unprepared for just how tiring it was to have to stand up or walk around. It was exhausting. How does anyone manage to do this all day? She wondered.

She sat on the couch in silence for several minutes, staring blankly ahead at nothing in particular and letting her mind wander. Evelyn could not help but think back at how overjoyed she’d been when she’d eaten the Ambrosia at last. She’d been so overwhelmed, so excited, and so anxious for getting a chance to live her life anew.

But she never imagined it would be like this.

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“Ev?”

The girl jumped at the sound of a voice over her shoulder. Within her chest, her heart began racing at the sudden shock… a sensation that simply surprised her even more. Evelyn took a long, slow breath to calm herself before finally speaking.

“Hey, Krysti.” She said softly. “You startled me.”

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The older woman crossed in front of Evelyn and took a seat beside her on the small loveseat. “How are you feeling?” Krystina asked, her tone subdued.

Evelyn just shrugged. “Same as yesterday, I guess. And the day before…” She paused. “But don’t worry about me. What about you?”

Krystina’s shrug mirrored her own. “Better, I guess.” The woman sighed. “But not a lot.” She admitted.

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Krystina paused, then appeared to be looking Evelyn up and down for a moment. “Are those the same clothes you wore yesterday?” She asked.

The young girl just nodded.

“And did you eat today?” Krystina continued. There was almost a hard edge to her voice as she spoke.

Evelyn shook her head. “I’m pretty hungry.” She admitted softly. “But I guess I just didn’t feel like it.”

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In an instant, Krystina’s face hardened. “You need to start taking care of yourself, Evelyn.” She sighed heavily, narrowing her eyes at the girl as she spoke. “I know you were never expecting this… None of us were. Not so soon, at least.” She shook her head. “And I know you’re hurting right now… But I’m hurting too, Ev. My family’s hurting. I need to be there for them right now… And I can’t keep coming over here every day to remind you to eat, for Christ’s sake!” Krystina shook her head before continuing.

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“I love you, Ev. You’re family too.” Her tone softened slightly, though her irritation still showed on her face. “But you’ve got to meet me halfway on this. You’ve gotta get out of this house. Staying here’s doing you no good… Do you really think this is what my dad would want for you? After everything he went through to give you this second chance?”

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Evelyn was silent for several long moments, considering the woman’s words. “I don’t know what he’d want.” She replied at last. “Because he’s not here to tell me.”

With a sigh of exasperation, Krystina rose to her feet. “Well I do know. And he’d never want to see you like this. Believe me.” She said seriously. “Now, I brought you something to wear.” The woman continued, changing the subject. “I wasn’t sure on the size, but I think it’ll work… You are coming,” Her voice seemed slightly nervous as she spoke. “Aren’t you?”

Evelyn simply nodded.

“Good.” Krystina said flatly. Evelyn could tell she was fighting to keep her emotions in check. “It’s out in the car. I’ll be right back.”

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Evelyn adjusted her skirt slightly, cringing inwardly at the scratchy feeling of the lace against her palms. Her tactile senses had become so heightened that, in truth, everything felt unpleasant to her. But there was something about the roughness of this particular fabric that made it more unbearable than anything else she’d worn… And of course, it wasn’t just the material that felt so strange – She hadn’t worn a dress in over eighty-three years.

Still, Evelyn had to admit, it was pretty.

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But would Lucas have liked it? She couldn’t help but wonder. She thought back to her conversation with Krystina just a few minutes before.

“Do you really think this is what my dad would want for you? After everything he went through to give you this second chance?”

What would he have wanted? It was a good question.

And over the past few days, her mind had been plagued with many thoughts just like it.

What did his cooking taste like? Did he look any different in the light of the sun? What would he say if he could see her right now? What would the warmth of his skin feel like against hers?

So many questions, and the answer was still the same.

I don’t know. Evelyn hung her head as the tears she’d been holding back all morning finally began to fall.  And I never will…

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80 Responses to Chapter Ninety-Six

  1. CitizenErased14 says:

    I know, I know. I’m a monster. *hangs head in shame*

    I don’t even think I have words for this. Lucas was my favorite character I’ve ever created. He was like a part of me, and I feel so horrible right now. I know not everyone liked him that much, but I loved him and he was so so so special to me. I don’t think I’ll ever have another sim or character I create that I love and connect with as much as I did with him.

    I wanted to do this grand “goodbye” note, but I don’t even know what else to say. So I’ll just say this: Thank you, Lucas, for being a caring and devoted husband to Mel. Thank you for being a loving and compassionate father to Krystina. And thank you for being an incredible and selfless friend to Evelyn for all these years. I love you, Lucas ❤

    *runs away sobbing forever*

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  2. Jes2G says:

    (sigh) I do not accept this!

    😦

    #TeamLucas still lives

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      I’m sorry for this. I feel awful haha (and I cried so much when I made this happen in-game. -_- I have broken my own heart haha) But #TeamLucas will never die ❤

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      • Jes2G says:

        I know. (sigh) The signs were there, and I suspected this may happen but…man! I don’t accept this lol.

        Ok…#TeamLucas shirt off, D2D fan shirt on. I like the way you did it. There was a genuine gasp of surprise after you know where. I even kinda feel sorry for Evelyn now. I’m sorry she never got to hug Lucas for real, taste his cooking, and whatever else she was hoping to experience with him. I really am. I know it’ll be hard for her to adjust to life now, but I hope (some kind of way) she’ll be able to live the life that Lucas worked so fervently to give her…and she better remember that!!

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      • CitizenErased14 says:

        Yes, Evelyn is in a very bad place right now (also, she has the gloomy trait, so… She’s very depressed haha). Hopefully she will be able to get through it! We’ll see soon 😉 Thank you for reading btw, and for your great comment

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  3. I’m so emotional right now. Please, Ev. Bring him back!!

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  4. cathytea says:

    Beautifully done. I really appreciate the way you show how painful and uncomfortable it is for Ev to have a corporal existence. She had forgotten all the pain and discomfort associated with having a physical form!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yes, it’s a very hard adjustment for her! I can’t even wrap my head around how bizarre it would be haha. And now the poor thing has to deal with feeling so depressed on top of everything else. Things aren’t great for poor Ev right now…

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  5. theplumbob says:

    Oh man, I wish I had been wrong. Can’t say I wasn’t ready for it. But still, I hope Ev realises that Licas would want her to live her life and that if she just keeps moping his efforts would have ben for nothing.

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  6. julyvee94 says:

    So sad 😦 We loved you Lucas! 😦

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  7. thebookthief24 says:

    Jeez , Krysti. Did you have to say it that way?

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  8. Guess its a ‘life for a life” kind of thing? If you’re going to bring one person back, you have to make a sacrtfice on someone’s else part. Ie. Arthur Weasly was going to die but instead he got saved but Tonks and Lupin had to be sacrfired in book 7 of HP)

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  9. Derubelle says:

    Oh dear.. *runs off and cries with you*

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  10. NoaLyn says:

    Oh no. I thought something like this would happen… but i did hope for at least one hug between these two :((

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  11. If it makes you feel better, this is exactly what I would’ve done… Mind you, I am 101% evil with a sprinkling of monster on top! XD

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  12. Whaaat?!? Why?! Why!? Death has a sick sense of humor.

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  13. simz4ever says:

    Goodbye Lucas. I know I was never sympathetic towards you, and I kind of hated you in the end, but the way you died was just sad. SAD! *runs off to cry*

    😆

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  14. simz4ever says:

    My anger is now aimed at Krysti…

    😡

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  15. O'jenn says:

    #TeamMel and #TeamLucas 4 ever ❤ ❤

    Together again Lucas and Mel, words I don't have them. It is only my hope that they at least see each other again and are together once more.

    Someone PLEASE get me a lifetime supply of tissues PLEASE!

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  16. The Texas Simmer says:

    Your story is so complex and good. The irony of it all. I hate to see him go but it makes for great reading. What will Ev do now!?!

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  17. No, no no noooo 😦 I was so suspecting this. I’ve always thought someone has to give their life for that aqua vitae thing, because …yeah, the debt to Death must be payed. It makes a lot of sense and partially I’m glad you did it like this, because it just …clicked.
    But I will appreciate the beauty of your writing later, when I stop being sad (I mean, not a single hug? Not a single touch? Not a single word? Gosh, that is too much.)

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      I know, I’m cruel! 😦 They both would have probably given anything for just one touch… Imagine how many years they’d been dreaming of it… Wow, I’m upsetting myself now haha

      Interesting observation about a life being given for the Aqua Vitae 😉 That’s all I’ll say for now 🙂

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  18. maladi777 says:

    Well, I knew she should’ve eaten that ambrosia right away. They could have at least a couple more minutes. *sigh*

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  19. Senna says:

    Me at the beginning of this chapter: “Why do I get the feeling something isn’t right?”
    Me when I saw Krystina in a black dress: “Oh…I think I know why…”
    Me when I see the flashback pictures: “Yep, that’s why.” 😦

    Still a pretty good chapter, though! (If a very sad one)

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah, I was mean with this one by making it kind of creep up on everyone haha. I’m glad you liked it regardless! 🙂 You’re just 5 chapters away! You’re quick! Haha

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  20. RipuAncestor says:

    Oh, so he did end up dying anyway. I kind of saw this coming, really. Still, it was probably not the first thing Evelyn would have liked to experience after coming back to life. The flashback pics at the end were stunning.

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  21. Simslover163 says:

    OH NO!! Another death!! It’s Lucas this time!! Poor Ev!! It’s really painful to see him go!!

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  22. whattheplum says:

    I freakin’ knew it.. you.. you.. that was pretty good, actually. lol. 🙂

    That’s a neat pose at the end there, the 2nd to last, the crying in a heap one. (gawd, I sound like a monster. oops. *blush*)

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  23. Lisha says:

    I had a feeling something bad would happen. This chapter definitely caused me to cry tears of frustration and extreme sadness (still crying right now). I’m heartbroken right now, omfg.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      I don’t like your heartbreak! I just “like” basically every comment I get haha. I am sorry. 😦 I cried for ages. Lucas was my “baby”. I loved him so much. I felt like a monster doing this *sigh*

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  24. kaffepigen says:

    Nooooo! She never got to say goodbye! 😦 (Still, awesome chapter!)

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  25. Ev’s sadness it’s getting to me. You’re evil sometimes. I knew Lucas was dying soon but I didn’t expect it to be so soon. I was expecting at least a one day thing with Ev. But I guess I can kind of see this as a balance act like “Give a life, take a life.”

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah, sorry for this one -_- I was a bit evil. If it helps, I totally broke my own heart with this one, so I was suffering along with you!

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  26. lovesstorms says:

    Great minds think alike! I know, it’s evil, but honestly, it’s what was right for this story. I firmly believe it. Despite the fact that I wanted those two to get together in some way at some point. That story wasn’t meant to be. ❤

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      I was totally thinking that with your last comment too! I was going “Aha! She and I are alike.” hahaha. It was really painful for me to do this — I mean, think about it… they never even got to touch eachother even once (unless you count Evelyn cradling his dead body… which is just so damn sad haha). But like you said, it was right for the story!

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      • lovesstorms says:

        It’s kind of scary, ain’t it? Having our minds? lolol I know, I know. Stop talking about what they couldn’t do! *cries a little* I’m trying really, really, really hard not to think about it. lolol

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  27. I was worried that had happened.

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  28. misfit913 says:

    This is what I figured would happen, but it didn’t make it any easier 😦

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  29. luxconant says:

    Oh no! 😦
    I always wondered that, I don’t know if it’s bad but…
    “What was the point of anything anymore?” They were all grown up already and she was about to live, what would she do now? I mean, I know life has to move on but she had no one else, no family, except for them

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      She has to start over now, and try to move on… But much easier said than done! Lucas was her world 😦 (I’m very impressed that you remember enough to jump back in haha you’re very close to the end!)

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  30. I hate you right now… SERIOUSLY! I get this far and I don’t even get an Ev/Lucas HEA of some level? This is evil. (FYI I read this story over the weekend while I was dealing with my grandfather-in-law’s death and funeral. Maybe I should have waited. The emotions, Citizen!!!)

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Oh no! I’m so sorry for your loss 😦 This is very hard to read when you’re dealing with grief (especially the stuff with Mel’s death). Hugs to you (even though you hate me haha)

      And no, no romantic ending for Lucas and Ev. He truly was in love with Melanie. He loved Evelyn very much, but not romantically. This is meant to be a story about the strength of platonic love 🙂 Sorry that aspect of it disappointed you!

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  31. msmarvel98 says:

    “But of course, none of it could even begin to compare to what else she’d been forced to adjust to. Nothing could have ever prepared her for that.” I KNEW IT FROM THIS MOMENT!

    I really really LOVE your way of story-telling – you indirectly tell us what happened through the character’s emotions and actions, and screenshots.

    Now it’s really interesting to explore Ev’s challenges of being alive again – how can she ever do mundane things without feeling guilty that Lucas basically gave up his life so she could have a second chance? That’s a lot of pressure. Oh, and since Ev is 20, at some point she will lose Krysti too 😭

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah, it killed me that poor Lucas died!!!! We still don’t know yet exactly what happened… But he DID inherit his father’s heart issues, unfortunately 😦

      I’m happy you are enjoying my style of kinda hinting at stuff instead of directly telling right away. That’s kind of fun to do 🙂

      Poor Ev though. My heart breaks for her. She’s dreamed of nothing but just TOUCHING Lucas for over half a century… And when she finally got the chance, he was cold and dead 😭 I’m a monster.

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